Depression / IT

Depression / IT
by
Robin Hall


Depression is not really by me. I didn't invent IT. ITs not due to a weak will or laziness. I cannot just say no to IT.

People have likely had this killer disease as long as we have stood upright and fought the elements, animals and others for survival.

IT can come on when you are feeling swell, last for months then disappear for a few days. The cycles are endless. No medicine has helped me. I am convinced the stats on how many are helped, well, I am skeptical when docs STATE 70% improve. If you believe that I have a fine device to change your life. Just send me $4769.00, tax included, and I will send you the device. You will have to buy ammunition locally.

I spent a lot of time revising Thief of Joy so I won't go on too much. I have had IT since I was 19. One theory is genetic mutation. Yes, some sun ray or other whacks a gene, it multiplies and you are fucked.

There are many forms of IT and endless discussions on what to do about IT. If you click Google and put in any of these queries, without the quotes: " depression " , " manic depression " , " major depression ", " bipolar disorder " or the like, follow the links you choose and do some studying, you will find more than you want to know.

To paraphrase a current slogan, "We're here, we're depressed. Live with it!" So, to the unbelievers I say, "Do your fucking homework before you criticize the unknown world around you.

To others with IT, you have my sympathy. I have had IT 43 years now. Lots do not survive IT. I have no cure for you, no guidelines. Some survive, some do not. That is a fact.

I have nothing to offer other than my blogs. My hope is they can ease the pain through my sharings.

My Life is about the fog of depression.
My Stories What I have written when the fog lifts.
Finding Things Online Internet tutorials.

For Us With IT

Some days I am cold, I feel dead inside. My vision is blurred. I am angry. I am sad. I say things that can hurt. I am in the throes of depression and the cycles are actually painful. The bottom of the cycles are painful and dangerous to me. The neuro-chemicals that are not working properly are damaging my brain and IT hurts.

This is IT, for me. For you, perhaps IT is MS, PTSD, cancer, an injury from war. IT. Put your pain in IT below and know a bit more of yourself, me and others with IT. " If you have no pain now be glad and know a bit about others with IT. Take care of them. Perhaps they are you another day.




For Us With IT
by
Robin Hall

IT will not go away forever but IT may go away for a while.
IT will be back.IT is not our fault.
There is NOTHING we can do about IT but most of us will keep trying.
When we try, we win.

There is nothing we can do for another with IT but be there for them.
IT is not contagious so there is no danger in catching IT.

REMEMBER THIS ABOVE ALL ELSE: Others with IT are still whoever they were before IT and between cycles of IT. They will return. Be there during and after.

Do not be embarrassed by IT. None of us are embarrassed by cancer though IT is almost as life threatening and just as debilitating.

Remember, the person with IT is not IT, they are the person. IT is an overlay. Look deeper, they are still themselves.

Do not tell someone with IT to cheer up or have a nice day.
You would not say this to an accident victim on the way to the hospital would you?

We, the victims of IT, remember who was there for us and who was not.
Deal with us as people. Despise IT. Love the person.
Love us as before. Is that so hard?